17 On the first day of the Festival of Unleavened Bread, the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Where do you want us to make preparations for you to eat the Passover?”
18 He replied, “Go into the city to a certain man and tell him, ‘The Teacher says: My appointed time is near. I am going to celebrate the Passover with my disciples at your house.’” 19 So the disciples did as Jesus had directed them and prepared the Passover.
20 When evening came, Jesus was reclining at the table with the Twelve. 21 And while they were eating, he said, “Truly I tell you, one of you will betray me.”
22 They were very sad and began to say to him one after the other, “Surely you don’t mean me, Lord?”
23 Jesus replied, “The one who has dipped his hand into the bowl with me will betray me. 24 The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born.”
25 Then Judas, the one who would betray him, said, “Surely you don’t mean me, Rabbi?”
Jesus answered, “You have said so.”
26 While they were eating, Jesus took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to his disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.”
27 Then he took a cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you. 28 This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. 29 I tell you, I will not drink from this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s kingdom.”
30 When they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.
Dear God, this is a tough scene to watch. We know what’s coming, but the disciples don’t. Jesus is trying to prepare them for what is about to happen, but there is no real way to do it.
I am curious that he took the opportunity to call out Judas. I wonder if he just couldn’t take it anymore. The anguish must have been tremendous. Sitting there at the table with Judas, watching him try to tact normal, but exhibit signs of guilt. The other disciples were probably so confused that they didn’t notice, but Jesus knew. I wonder how the other disciples responded to his exchange with Judas. I don’t think any of the other Gospels give us an insight into their reaction. They only tell us that all of them were only thinking of themselves and whether or not it could be them that would do it.
Father, I don’t so much have any real revelations for myself in this passage. My thoughts are mainly about trying to get in the heads of each person in the story and empathize with them in some way. I don’t have nearly as much judgment in my heart for Judas as I did when I was young because I can see the wickedness in my own heart that isn’t all that different from his. I also don’t judge the other disciples as much either. Perhaps that is the point of most of these stories—that eventually we grow to the point where we see ourselves in their weaknesses and strive to improve ourselves rather than judge them. Maybe we can do the same with those around us in our everyday lives too.