Philippians 1:20-26

18 Aug

For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die. For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. But if I live, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better. I’m torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live. Knowing this, I am convinced that I will remain alive so I can continue to help all of you grow and experience the joy of your faith. And when I come to you again, you will have even more reason to take pride in Christ Jesus because of what he is doing through me.
Philippians 1:20-26

Dear God, is it a problem that I don’t long to be with you/Jesus in heaven just yet? I don’t think it is, but this passage from Paul always surprises me. Personally, I’m good to keep living.

It is interesting to now be at an age where I’m likely over halfway through with the life you’ve given me. In fact, I was watching a disaster movie last night and as all of the people were dying I thought about if my time was done now. What would that mean for the ones I love? Would my wife have what she needs? Would my work function until I was replaced? I suppose I’m grateful to know that one of the things that I thought about that gave me some peace was the different things I’ve done to help others. I don’t think my life, as much of a vapor as it is, has been a waste of your time or the time others have kindly invested in it, including family and friends who love me. I’ve taken a really good shot at doing my best for you.

Father, I’m not saying I’m perfect or that I’ve done everything you’ve asked me to do. I failed you yesterday. I’ve probably already failed this morning. So that’s not what I’m saying. I guess what I’m saying is that I’ve found peace in worshipping you and trying to love others around me as my number one and two motivators. Thank you for offering the grace I need so that I don’t have to consider my failures any more than you do.

In Jesus’s name I pray,


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