“The Now and the Not Yet” by Amy Grant
No longer what we were before,
But not all that we will be.
Tomorrow, when we lock the door,
On all our compromising,
When He appears,
He’ll draw us near,
And we’ll be changed by His glory,
Wrapped up in His glory….
We will be like Him,
For we shall see Him,
As He is.
No longer what we saw before,
But not all that we will see.
Tomorrow, when we lock the door,
On all our disbelieving,
When He appears (holy, holy),
Our view will clear,
And we’ll be changed by His glory,
Wrapped up in His glory….
But I’m caught in between
The now and the not yet;
Sometimes it seems like
Forever and ever,
That I’ve been reaching to be
All that I am,
But I’m only a few steps nearer,
Yet I’m nearer….
No longer what we were before,
But not all that we will be.
Tomorrow, when we lock the door,
On all our disbelieving,
And He appears (holy, holy),
He’ll draw us near,
And we’ll be changed by His glory,
Wrapped up in His glory….
When He appears (holy, holy),
He’ll draw us near,
And we’ll be changed by His glory,
Wrapped up in His glory….
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Dear God, I was lying down for a nap yesterday and this song came on my iPod. It is from a mid-80s Amy Grant album called Straight Ahead. I’ve always liked it and I’ve known it has great lyrics–there’s a reason it’s on my phone nearly 40 years later–but yesterday might be the first time I stopped to let the lyrics sweep over me. I talked about it later with my wife when we were on a walk, and she was familiar with the song too. We both started quoting the lyrics back and forth to each other, appreciating the sentiment.
For me, what really blessed me was the bridge:
But I’m caught in between
The now and the not yet;
Sometimes it seems like
Forever and ever,
That I’ve been reaching to be
All that I am,
But I’m only a few steps nearer,
Yet I’m nearer….
It’s frustrating to have been discipling and following you for over 35 years and not feel like I’ve grown more than I have. I’m caught between who I was before Jesus and who I will be on the other side of the death divide–heaven. Oh, how I would love to be completely that person now! I would love to not sin. I would love to not let my cultural biases get in the way of the truth you want to teach me. I would love to not judge. I would love to love my wife and children perfectly. I would love to be all of these things, but I just can’t. I’m not there yet. But I can decisively say that I have learned things and grown over the last 35 years, 20 years, 10 years, year, 6 months, 6 weeks, 6 days, 6 hours, and even 6 minutes. “I’m only a few steps nearer, yet I’m nearer.”
Father, I commit to this journey. It is truly forming me. I talked with a friend yesterday who went through what maybe was the worst trial of his life over the last few weeks, and he ashamedly admitted to me that it was the best his prayer life has ever been. I’ve been there. Good times don’t drive me to my knees, but struggles sure do. So thank you for the struggles. Not that you caused them (as we learned from James), but you walk with me through them and redeem them to form me. Whatever you’re doing, please don’t let me get in the way and do it for your glory.
I pray all of this through the grace and blood of Jesus,
Amen
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